“Fight the good fight of the faith.”
—1 Timothy 6:12a (NRSV)
Particularly when depression and
anxiety strike, the evolvement of many random or sudden dark imaginings, we are
given to submission—the damaging kind. We submit out of ignorance, weakness, or
for the situational lack of resilience. Generally afterwards we can see how we
went wrong.
We don’t often think of engaging
the will to fight; not the will to endure so much, but the will to fight. The
weapon of fighting the good fight of the faith is hope.
If we can find our way to
hope—whatever that passage is; however we can claim it—our fight has been a
conquest. We have restored our spiritual equilibrium.
Engaging the will to fight occurs
in the mind—to become aware, to make room, to expand our consciousness.
And if we find ourselves on a blue
day, without such hope, and we don’t feel we have the strength, that is okay.
But there are days when we can push ourselves; other days when we can take a
risk.
Taking up the Task of Finding Hope
Finding hope is a key in fighting
the good fight of the faith.
Within the darkness there is a
void of hope. We find ourselves doing things we don’t accept. Things get on top
of us. We lose our bearings for goodness. We feel overwhelmed and patently sad.
And though these occasions may be fleeting they mark us as being without sense
for hope.
Having lost our hope we survive to
a certain degree, and for a time undetected. Then the lack becomes more
pronounced. We notice we are struggling and others may notice too.
We have a very practical task in
front of us; to find that hope that preachers and pop psychologists spruik
about. We may have had a sharp connection with it. But our sense for it has
diminished, perhaps even evaporated.
Finding our hope needs, therefore,
to become our highest priority.
As we venture on the road toward
this hope we hear about but hardly experience, our task is one of research and
discovery. We begin with a blank page and fill it in as we go. Of course, we
know that hope ends in God; it begins there too.
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When life is dark hope is gone.
Engaging the will to fight the good fight of the faith is the way we restore
our hope. And hope finds its end in God; it begins there too.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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