“You’re rich in love, and You’re slow to anger, Your name is great, and Your heart is kind; for all Your goodness, I will keep on singing; 10,000 reasons for my heart to find.”
MATT Redman’s song is an anthem for so many. God ushered something into my ungrateful spirit recently — ‘do 10,000 reasons!’
I knew immediately what He meant, and I did not like it.
What, I am being tasked with 10,000 actual reasons for my heart to find; why I love you; why I’m grateful?
I’ve done 100 Reasons to be Happy twice. It really only took about ninety minutes each time to count those blessings. But is God asking me to do that over one hundred consecutive days?
Is it a punishment? No. It’s about Him giving me an assignment as I reinstall a gratitude habit.
The truth is the busyness of life is wearing me down. It’s only three weeks into a new year and I’m wearing out already being there for everyone else but myself — it’s not the full truth but that’s what it feels like. I feel like I’ve been under sustained spiritual attack for over a month. My life is far busier than I wish it were, and a big part of that is the season we’re in, and it’s not bad. I’m not achieving my personal health and exercise goals because I’m dining out on comfort in an uncomfortable season. Feeling devoid of hope has become normal. My light shines dimly. But none of this is anyone else’s fault but my own. Two things make life easier when it’s hard: 1. work hard and 2. take responsibility.
I’m taking God up on His challenge, even though I resent it at present, and feel it will only load me up even more. But I do have faith He will show me something over the next one hundred days as I wrestle with my frustration and exhaustion and gradually replace them with perspective and thankfulness through the simple practice of gratitude.
So, 10,000 reasons for my heart to find… why? Because I’m not living a Christlike life at the moment.