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Dear Covenant Lord
Gracious
alone, You are my Rock, from the foundation of the earth through the foundation
of life to the foundation of my life. You are
my life.
Yet in
following You, Lord Jesus, to the seriousness of Your Word, I am convicted of
heart about how much it will cost. Will I have the wherewithal to build my
allegiance? God alone, You know.
You know I
will need a strong and big and pliable heart, a disciplined mind, a fervent
soul. And yet Your grace reminds me that the work of Your cross is done, that
there is no more to do. For such a fact I owe You my life. Still, You raise me
as You, Yourself, are risen.
What else
will I need, Lord? What else will be required as I prepare to make my way to
You? Teach me again as I ponder what it has cost thus far.
Surely, I’ll
need godly support; people who will keep me to short account and encourage me,
who will speak truth with me. Surely I’ll need virtue in abundance, especially
humility, as pride so often wrests my journey with You away from me.
I will
need to focus on being with You at
all times. I’ve so often learned how hard it is to be a ‘professional’
Christian. That it can be a free form of discipleship that refuses to believe,
let alone pay for, the costliness of such an endeavour. I know, because I have
partaken. Lord, help me simply follow You. To simply follow You is harder than
being a 9-5, half-day-Sunday Christian. Help me transcend the difficulties of
the minister I know too well of.
Jesus,
help me not be a half-finished tower, a relic of the promise of means without
end. Help me measure what I promise You now so as to overestimate the cost,
which must be too fanciful a prayer, and too ludicrous, to pray. Help me when I’m
so immature as to get the wrecking ball out to destroy what You have already
built.
Help me,
in fear and in trembling, come before You now, knowing I will come up short.
Prepare my heart even in that sense so I know then what to give up and when and
how to do it. Not now, as that is too much to ask, but then.
Give me
grace to do what I cannot do in my own strength, but only in Yours.
And
forgive me for the way I now still so frequently underestimate the cost.
In my
Saviour’s name I pray, AMEN.
This prayer is devoted to Luke 14:28:
Jesus said, likening the call to follow Him to that of building a tower… “Suppose one
of you wants to build a tower. Won’t you first sit down and estimate the cost
to see if you have enough money to complete it?”
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